• You are so brave
• You are the strongest person I know
• That took courage
Comments shared over the past few weeks and certainly stated from a place of love and kindness. Interestingly, I have thought long and hard about these comments and how they make me feel. Should I be happy? Flattered? Shocked?
Being authentic and transparent was a purposeful decision I made when I started my career at Comcast. Prior to that, I had been guarded and cautious – with the exception of my close circle of colleagues and friends. What people thought of me and about me mattered – and mattered more than my ability to be my authentic self. That takes a lot of work and can be exhausting, let me tell you.
In my continued quest to be transparent and authentic I made the purposeful decision that I would use my blog to share the challenges of life, career, and family in hopes that my experiences could somehow help others. That was the purpose.
As I do with most of my pivotal decisions, I shared my plan for my blog and my intention of its purpose with my husband. He was fully aligned that yes my life experiences and challenges could certainly benefit others – as always my biggest supporter. My raving fan.
Sharing in a very transparent manner is both risky and scary. People love. People judge. People care. People reach out. People avoid. People try. Lives go on as normal for others. We go back to routines. We transition back into work. My pain is real and palpable – it hurts. I take solace in the normalcy that my work provides me.
The reward of transparency and authenticity is that life gets managed on my own terms – no apologies, no excuses, no façade. I am grateful that I have the support of my Comcast family (and the most amazing boss I have ever worked for) in order to manage my transition back to work in my way – in a way that will work for me…..in support of my ability to do what I need to for myself. Kind caring of oneself is critical in a time like this – to be able to cope and to be of meaning to one’s work.
Next week I will share my transition back to work which was the biggest “next step” for me. I will interweave some of the transactional things I am trying to manage while transitioning back to work.
One of my dear friends shared with me the following…..her experience in her life brought her these words of strength and hope to support me. Had I not been truly authentic in sharing the tragic loss of my husband – these words would not have been shared with such meaning!
“Take one day at a time. If that is too much, then one hour or one minute. Focus on what is possible and not what seems to be unrelenting, insurmountable pain. It gets better, not today….not even tomorrow, but eventually. The heartache never ends, but it gets better. And know this – you will not be the same person on the other side of this and that’s ok.”
I am blessed.
The pain is real.
One minute, one hour, one day at a time.